My Road To Clear Skin : Episode 1

As I entered 2018 with a bit of confusion and clueless what I am going to do as an unemployed, I do make some lists with a little bit of everything I wanted in life. At least what I wanted to achieve this year. One of it was getting a clear, healthy, glowing skin as you will look just fine without makeup. Look good with and without makeup is the ultimate goal of every girl. I think. There goes how this post initiated. A home coming to the very last post was like when? 2014. Reverted everything and re reading all the drafts made like "whatttt?"

My skin was far far from being perfect. Not even close to just how average girl will look like. Yes, not even. I dont know what the best word to describe how low my self esteem was when someone seeing me without makeup. I appreciate when I receive compliments & many of public opinions about me. But, the feeling. It is like.. guys, you will never know I bad my situation are. Pictures on Instagram can be deceiving. So so deceiving.

So, how it started?

Long time ago I think when I started entering 20s. Having an oily to combination with prone to acne skin type sometime I just simply "redha" when pimples keep coming. Sometimes it looked good, sometimes better but most of the time is just breakouts. Volcano explosions happened everywhere especially when it is the time of the month. My skin sometime got really sensitive occasionally for example like after come back from hiking/trecking or something.
But, one thing I know is my pimples/blemishes senang naik and senang elok. Weird.
So that was the history.

As I read articles about skincares, beauty, science, chemistry & health a lot for past 6 months. I really into beauty science these days. Also those time when I was still at SIRIM Berhad working with the other ceritified cosmetic chemist and formulator I did enjoy knowing everythings in cosmetic and how it being explained using science. But, with my situation I really dont have the confidence to say it out. I do take notes on whats good or whats bad for skin and acne, reading reviews about products, research on the treatments, try and error...and try again. I bet the more you read the more the urge to try products that seems to give good testimonials. So tempting! Girls just cannot handle that. It is like I am doing experiment to my face. And yeah God know how many I spend on skincare and device earlier this year hoping that it will work. I take so many selfies to see my skin improvement, if there is slightly noticeable change pun dah happy gilaaaa. So, I guest I should documenting about this, I mean for my references.